I'm proud that four girls who have no expierience of using a lighting board, worked out how to make the lights work half an hour quicker than five guys and a girl who had. Clearly guys just suck.

stealingness

I stole some pink, fluffy, flashy ears. XD XD XD

life

For the past week or so, everytime my alarm goes off and i come out of the realm of my dreams, i wish i hadn't. I'm disapointed that i have to face my life. Not that my life's bad, it's pretty good really, but my dreams are better. I find myself questioning why i'm here for the bazillionth time, and it frustrates me so much that i don't know the answer. I don't have a purpose, which is why i say 'what is the point?' a lot, and consiquently, don't try as hard as i should at things. I try to live for today as much as possible. I don't like thinking about the future, because what if i don't get there? I don't want to spend my day building for tomorrow if tomorrow isn't going to come. And if it does come i don't want to look back on today and think i wish i'd done something else instead. I know with this thinking i'm going to end up in a hole, but i shall face that when it comes, as i do everything else. People say life goes too fast, i believe the opposite. There is so much stuff i want to do, but i can't because i'm not old enough. I hate not being in control of things. I wish i could fast foward and rewind my life, it would makes things so much more fun.

I'm really disheartened that i'm not in Glasgow right now. It makes me sad to think that if i hadn't got a bolt through my lip, I could be there (ignoring the fact that by now I would have spent that money on something else anyway). I can't wait till Halloween.

I've had two days of college. All we've been doing is inductions to stuff, but tomorrow we get to be in the theatre. Yeyness. I can see it being a really great year.

Bristol = Wetness but it was good anyway.

My mum just made cheese scons and i want one.

I keep thinking of Youtube things and i want to say them but no one will understand, so i have to giggle quietly to myself. Today I wrote Hello(in a Scottish accent) on the board in our room, and everyone was like, 'Why in a Scottish accent??' I was just like 'erm... because'

There was an akward silence, and i was about to say, 'Put the animal hospital tune on' but no on would have got it. =(

Hopefully i can conivince my mum to lend me some money so i can go to Glasgow on saturday.

Things i loved about Youstage:

Having nine people in my two-man tent
Swimming
Stealing signs
SAUCECUAS
Drinking tea with the band every morning
The disco balls
Getting three wrist bands
Playing guitar with a tea stirrer
Hugs
Turning Scottish
Injecting kisses
Stealing Dan’s hoddie
Giggling when people said Grass
Laughing so much it hurt
Stealing a waitrose chip
Talking to security guards whilst drunk
Steven’s accent
Arguing that purple is better
The breaking of the gazebo
Glowsticks
Feeling loved

I miss everyone, i hate being home.